I had this whole lengthy paragraph explaining why I have decided to give up on the recording / composition dream. However, there wasn't much to say except I've taken a long hard look at what I have done, what is needed to continue, and decided not to pursue anymore. Yet, there is one last final dream I am harboring. I've gone back to lessons on Timpani for brush up and learn new techniques in preparation for the day the Garritan Philharmonic Orchestra becomes a reality.
So, I am not giving up on a dream just replacing it with another.