My little puppy dog (Dik is name) is grave.
He is under continuos kidneys perfusion. His kydneys are bloked.
He is suffering as I never seen. He has terrible belly pains.
Also he has vomit cause by the extreme high blood levels of kydney toxins.
Veterinarians say that they really don't know how this kind of disease can evolve. They say that he could be raise again, or not.
They really don't know. They are trying all the best.
But unfortunately his blood values are costantly increasing.
In Italy is incredible difficult to practise dialysis on a dog.
the same for transplant.
I cry and pray, pray and cry for him.
I keep him among my arms this morning as he was usual.
He has been a free spirit, always happy to live his life, with his friends and us.
He does not deserve this pain. He has been and he is my joy and love!
I cannot see him suffering in this way.
We will wait until tomorrow to see what happens.
Otherwise I will make him sleep forever.
Is this right?
Who am I to do this?
But is this the life?
Is this what we have to see in this short time we spend on this earth?
Why sometime the life is so horrible and cruel?
Where is the God in this moments?
Why so much pain on this world?
My life has never been so easy until now.
Maybe I have faults to expiate?
My love is suffering....
My joy is slowly dying...
and I cannot do nothing if not pray and cry.
With love for my Dik.