First and formost, I would like to take the time to thank each and every one of you who have taken the time to listen to this composition. I am equally grateful those who have listened and commented, as I am to those who have listened only. There have been moments when I only wanted to listen and did not wish to comment. Listening is an unspoken comment.
About "Nocturne in C Sharp Minor 'Resigned to Die'":
This composition was inspired by Chapter Thirty-four of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. The title of that chapter is "The Forest Again." This piece represents the inner struggles I fealt for what Harry Potter was experiencing, when reading the book. As he embraced whatever destiny had chosen for him, I embraced it with him. Since writing this piece I realized that everyone has the same kind of destiny, and like Harry choice is the key. It is what we choose that really makes the difference. At some point in each of our futures we will have to walk into the "Forbidden Forest of Death" and become resigned to die. It is not my desire to wax morbid in this post, but it is a direct reflection of the theme of the entire Harry Potter series. I am simply trying to give you the most accurate description of this composition.
This is the final revision of this piece. Ultimately, I realized that I had to choose what would be the elements that make up this composition. I thought about J. K. Rowling and the fact that she had to choose who would live and who would die in her story. She had to choose the dialog for each character; and she had to choose the words to describe each event in the story. In an interview after the last book she was asked if there was anything she would change in any of the books. She said yes, and it would be to do a better job of editing "Order of the Phoenix." She said, "it was too long." As a fathful reader of this book series I did not find Order too long, and would not want her to change one word. There you have it, it is, in the final analysis, a matter of choice. The creator gets the final word.
I have chosen each and every note, rest, rhythem, expression, dynamic and tempo. I chose them because I believe each is the correct one to convey the emotions I experienced while reading chapter thirty-four in Deathly Hallows. Are there things I would change, yes! However, it would only be made on the recording side.
I have not taken much time to learn how to use Sonar. I only decided tonight to try for the fun of it. I admit that I still don't have a clue about the software at this time, nor do I have the time need to master Sonar. I've only just begun to live in the past fifteen months. Finale, GPO, Sonar and composition are in their infancy stage for me at this point. Try to imagine a fifteen month child just beginning to learn about his/her new world.
My hope in sharing this composition is that it will inspire, entertain, and move you as it has me. If I allow myself to dewll on each and every tiny detail I feel that I would accompolish nothing but a mind full of philosophical/techno babble.
It was composed using Finale 2008 and Garritan Personal Orchestra's Steinway Grand. I decided that I would also experiment with Sonor Home Studio 6 XL to see if I could produce a better quality recording of this piece. I think that it is greatly improved by Sonar. Finale is, first and formost an engraver quality notation software, and is esteeme by me to be the best of its kind that I have used. However, it is not, I have learned, capable of producing a studio quality sound recordings.
Those of you that are members of the forum, who are far more experienced on the recording side of things, please feel free to share any information about Sonar and ambience that you think could imporve this recording. Remember you will be communicating your knowledge and expertise to a tyro.
I have spent three to four hours trying to tweek this file in Finale and Sonar. Finally, I decided that I would revert back to my Finale only policy. I have removed the preset ambience and chosen a notation quality dryness. I have had to make a very important choice here. I have chosen not to take the path of a recording expert. I choose the path of a composer alone. If this modification is appreciated by just one then I have accomplished my goal. In time when I have reached a more masterful level of both composition and Finale, then perhaps I can look to other software possibilities. In the fullness of time when I have mastered all of the software at my disposal then perhaps I shall feel comfortable enough to post another of my compositions in the "Listening" Room.