Well...I guess we never can expect the unexpected. I just recently had a heart attack! I'm only 44 and I NEVER saw it coming. I've been ordered by the doctor to take it easy and not overdo it with anything. This happened a little over 2 weeks ago and I've just been released from the hospital after having MANY, MANY tests; I feel like a living pin cushion! Angeograms, sonigrams, stress tests, ultrasounds...geeze.
Thank God there was no permenant damage to any arteries or, my heart. After all the tests, the doctor's concluded that my blood pressure was "off the charts" as they put it and my stress level was so high, I was told I was lucky I didn't have a stroke! I am now taking blood pressure medicine and nitroglycerine pills at this point and so far, I feel better. Needless to say, I was told it was time to change jobs to a "less" stressful environment.
It was really strange, the way it happened. It was late, around 4 am and I had just laid down on the couch in my studio because I was feeling...tired. As soon as I laid down, I began to sweat. I felt my left hand and arm get all tingly and numb and then, a tightness in my chest. I was having trouble getting my breath, it was like someone was sitting on my chest. Well, at this point, I knew something was NOT right so I tried to sit up. I was so dizzy, I fell to the floor and barely had enough strength to call 911. Within a matter of just a few minutes, (at least, that's all it seemed to me) paramedics arrived, they had to break down my front door to get in! After that, everything is pretty much a blurr to me. All I remember is seeing a bright light and hearing voices, then, waking up in the hospital. Talk about something to put your life in perspective! Without a doubt, this has to be one of the most frightening, life changing experiences anyone could ever have.
So, be it by the grace of God, or the skillful hands of the parimedics, I am still here and have been given a second chance, and the most precious gift of all....LIFE.
I have missed everyone here on the forums and just thought I would update everyone with what has been happening in my life. As soon as I'm able, I will get back to composing because even though that has been my first love, I have a greater appreciation AND love for life itself now.