I'm scared, worried, apprehensive, and certain all at the same time. Here, the world economy is crashing (although I had a dream it was turning around) and I have to have major surgery to/on/in my right shoulder for rotators cuff injury. No idea how it happened but I suspect it happened while shoveling snow sometime. Can't be sure though due to the fact my job can get very physical at times.
What am I worried about? Well, the Doc claims I will be out for at least six months and at least the first six to nine weeks my arm will be in a sling. P.T. will start during that time and then intensify there after. It is a long time to be on disability during these uncertain times.
I haven't had a real vacation in 25 years although this will be no vacation by all means. I'm worrying about my job and if it will still be here when I am able to come back. Everyone who may have been in this position knows that administrators tell you one thing and then when you least expect it they find some other reason to let you go. If I lose this job I will not only lose a decent salary, I will lose total health care coverage, my home, and much more. I'm a state employee so I think I am safe. That is, could you imagine getting state disability and being let go from a state position because you're on state benefits?
So, you can see it is not the surgery that scares me so much as my job position. In Buffalo, there just isn't much opportunity for the young people entering the job market yet along someone at my age. Do I think my hundreds of years of experience will weight in my favor? Does Washington start with a K?
What will bother me the most is not being able to play my instruments for six to nine months!
I'm going to call and schedule my appointment for soigery now so wish me luck.
Thanks ye all!