My past behavior has been less than adequate. I am very sorry to all of you and Garritan for my harsh words and behavior. I have been going through a lot, and while I'm not trying to excuse my behavior, I do want it known that my responses to the forum members, Garritan and their associates was a result of misguided anger, and having bottled up emotions.
With all my life crumbling down around me, I did have an episode of an attempted suicide, and was hospitalized for a few days. I am currently undergoing mental health therapy and "happy" medication to assist me in my mental recovery.
I do hope you all understand that any anger or comments I made were not personal attacks, but the result of just general depression and anger.
Again I am very sorry and hope we can again work on being friends. Thank you for understanding.
PS. Things have definitely brightened for me over the past few weeks during my recovery. I am feeling much happier and much better than in the past.