I have been absent for a while. (At least in consistent frequency of visiting, posting, listening, etc). And I have missed it.
I've been busy working on a business producing personal documentaries for people and find it very rewarding. And although I get to write nice music for these projects, 95% of my focus has been in video production techniques, software, equipment, etc. It's a far different direction for my creative energies than I have wandered into before, but it is still very satisfying creatively. (And GOOD money!)
But I have certainly not been able to really sink my teeth into composition or music production - my first love and passion.
As the days and months (and over 2 years now) passed since embarking on this journey, I started to lessen my appreciation for my own music and talent for it because I was replacing it with something else. (add to that a pretty unhealthy dose of self-criticism) I've become less excited about it, and more interested in film and video production. But that hasn't stopped the music from being in my head. I've just dismissed it and have tried to drown it out with something else creative. I have done a few small film scores from time to time, and even was able to eek out an entry for the Christmas Album, but other than that, nothing that wasn't tied to some other project.
Well, this morning, I was taking a break from editing interview footage and got onto the NS forum and before I knew it, 4 hours had passed! I had so much fun reading and listening.
I even looked up some old posts of mine, including some with my music. And reading the comments from all of you has given me a new appreciation for this forum and its members. You've also given me back an appreciation for my music that I had lost. At the time those old posts were new, even then, I think I dismissed much of it as mere politeness (as this forum is justly famous for). but today I as I read, I was struck how very sincere and honest those comments and insights were. They have really opened my eyes again. Now I am excited about writing music again.
I cannot thank you enough. Thank you for your support, your comments, your criticisms, and your friendship!